Love is In the Air....

my very own jaechun!!!!!!

2009-10-17T13:28:29Z

omg omg...finally I got my hand on at least ONE of their lost-of-count appearances for Colors...
well my friend and I was on a mission to get their CD Data mag, last month issue *which was sold out in just ONE FUCKING DAY here in Sydney*..but yeah, we didn't get it...
so we tried again this time with Pati Pati..obviously coz they got pin-up poster duhh~~~
and yay..we did it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and guess wat..there's this 2 pictures *full page* of Kato Kazuki!!!!
he's too hot...omo he was seriously not that hot in drama..lol

soooo going to put this poster on top of my bed...
so i can go to sleep watching it and wake up to it also...*mushy much~~*
and another thing...my Colors copy is here too......
thanks so much to my dearie Chongys...babe I got Chun's card!!!! *jealous?? lol*

can never get enough of these hotties....
Soulmates forever!!!!!

Saengil chukha yo~~

2009-08-07T15:04:43Z

happy birthday to me....
saengil chukha hamnida...
happy birthday dear 'me'~~~
saengil chukha hamnida!!!!!

hahah it sounds so pathetic if I said myself...lol....still...I'm happy as hell...got presents from my girlfriends...ahhh u guys rock!!!!well a late-birthday-celebration few hours before midnight of 7th aug....but I'm down with cold..why oh why is it on my birthday??

watever...it's still my birthday....but a year older doesn't mean I'm more mature but wiser maybe...yeah rite~~
here's some of my presents...since I made this account for dbsk's related stuff or for my fangirl personality *omg..it sounds like a disorder*...I stress more on DBSK related presents...muahahahha~~~

I was so damn bored during lecture and I came out with this....omo, class started last Monday but I'm still not in the mood to study....

these are the presents!!!! well..I got few stuffs that I LOVE *and need* but here are the DBSK related presents...hehehe

my very own CHEER YOU UP jae-couple shirt........hahah more like my couple shirt with the other thousands of people out there...heheh Jae fangirls' shirts!!!!! but I didn't know it was this big..I mean my fren got me the M sized shirt..but then my sister asked..why didn't I get the smaller one?? I was like..it's a present..duh~~ *roll eyes*

and of course the post won't be enough without my camwhoring-pose...hahaha..please, please, ignore my messy room...and yeah, it's winter and with my cold, I seriously need the heater...lol

and my COLORS- Melody and Harmony copy will arrive later in October...omg..I was seriously considering to buy it coz it's jae *and chun* for godsake, the song is nice also...and they look so HAWT in the jacket...dunno if this is the 1st press or not..but hopefully yes..I want jae's card!!! when my fren gave me the paper, I was like..'eh what's this?? house mortage is it?? SMTown ticket??'....then tadaaa~~ 'yeah, I dunno wat else to give you..and sorry, it will arrive LATER~~'...hahahha I couldn't be any happier...yay~~

and cd box....to put all my Dong Bang disc in it....well at least the one I bought here when I'm in Sydney...but seriously, need to buy more cds to fill the space...lol *indirect encouragement?? lol*

and from my chunbabe...we're soulmates babe....well this is one is an early birthday present...I love it...and our date was great too...right
dear?? but...still waiting for u to upload the pic on FB..heheheh there she is..sitting on top of my tv..my dear miss chatterbox @ me!!...lol

thanks guys for everything...even when our pockets can barely support us for the next month...lol...for all the wishes and presents!!!!! hahha some even tried to give me Jae as the present, but yeah...since I have to share him with thousands of girls *and maybe boys* out there...anything will do..lol~~ *a girl can always wish rite*...my last birthday in Sydney, kinda sad..but I gained such wonderful memories here and can't wait to create more...THANKS!!!!

happy but sad....

2009-08-06T07:14:36Z

well..the lawsuit case of Jaesuchun has cause such chaos for a while....
and the speculation behind the absence of Homin in the case made me a bit sadder as well..
and yeah...I'm so damn sad rite now..but still I believe in the boys....
so like for the first time, I took part in the international project that they did...
omg...all those dedicated fans *cassiopeia, bigeast, and international fans like me who is not apart of any official clubs...lol*...all their kind words and concerns almost brought tears *a happy one that is* to my eyes....
so here's my msg that I sent...tadaa~~~

omg, I took the 'write ur full name' part literally...and REALLY wrote my full name..my fren was laughing at me..and we were waiting for my msg to come out in the vid and then laugh again....
so after waiting like crazy for few days...finally, my msg came out in the 8th part *finally*...
and they put my favorite song also which is 'Don't Say Goodbye'....isn't it such a nice song??
my msg appeared for like 3sec...from 1.00-1.03 maybe....lol
but then....

i can see my msg is there..but YOU CAN"T SEE MY NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
in the end, both of us *my fren and I* can't really laugh at my FULL NAME...lol
omg..i was really hoping that DBSK members 'MIGHT' read it and finally discover my existence as their true fan *haha my fail fangirl mind just take over my mind*....but then...ahhhh my name was not even there to start with....hmmm~~
ok..ok I know they were in a rush to finish all the vids...it's not like I'm angry or piss-off at them...
hahahaha...seriously that's not my intention....lol
but yeah...just putting up the msg thing...so that you..yes you in my fren list will know about it....hahahha~~~
ahh maybe I can try next time....lol
watever it is..I still hope DBSK will still be together~~
DBSK hwaiting~~~~

p/s: btw..tomorrow's my birthday..yay!!!!!!!!!!!

Who wears it better?

2009-05-30T04:58:38Z

as usual...I was watching Family Outing ep 3 and 4
*instead of finishing my COMPULSORY assignment*
and I saw Chun Hee aka Chunderella wearing this shirt...
btw he's one of my favourite in this show...*after Jaesuk...lol*
he's always the clueless and dumb one....
still...he has the model-aura somehow..weird neh~~
*coz obviously he starts off his career as a model*

so the thing is....
*yeah get ready guys..I'm going to talk about Jaejoong DBSK again*
this shirt is the one that Jae endorsed not too long ago..
during their Purple Line time...
here's the pic of him wearing it

so what do you guys think?
who wears it better????
Kim Jaejoong or Lee Chun Hee
you know what my answer is...hehehhe
*acts innocent and totally un-biased*

OMG...Joongie..dun kill me!!!!

2009-03-22T12:43:28Z

omg Joongie...how many times do you wish to kill me??
enough of all this cute, sweet faces that you made...
ahhhhh~~~~~~~~~~~

basically I just watched TVXQ cut on We Got Married...
and I just can't forget that Jaejoong-peeking moment..
ahhh he's damn cute!!!!!!!!!!!

just for the record...I think he didn't recognize Hyungdon ~~*haha he's kinda famous I think, among the comedian but definitely not my favorite, he's a bit rude, well at least for me*~~ at first when he met him at the airport, coz he went straight ahead...
somehow Micky recognized Hyungdon, which made Joongie looked back and greeted him...omo Joongie~~

*and the sign...lol!! do you think I would knock first if I know that DBSK is in the room?? duh~~ I'll just ram the door down..*
p/s: I'm Malaysian..and being able to see Joongie's face on the side of my country name is soooo...hahaha happy~~ dun ask me why..patriotic much neh....lol~~~

fangirl-ing....

2009-03-10T10:48:37Z

omg....omg.....
Kiss The Baby Sky mv~~~~
it just melts me.....
seriously...I've been smiling throughout the whole video...
and I'm ALONE in my room...~~been screaming like crazy~~...

especially at Jaejoong 'looking-straight-at-camera + killer-smile' moment during 3.16-3.18 of the mv....
omg...~~i almost die~~~~~

omo...Joongie why did you do this to me and my poor soul???
I can hardly breathe....*inhale..exhale..inhale...exhale..*

I like their fresh, innocent, angel-like look in this video...
and that jump scene...hahah Yunnie, how excited can you be to show us all that 'skin'....
~~*but thanks anyway for becoming the reason for my nosebleed...lol*~~

ahhh gotta go and do more fangirl-ing~~~

Birthday Post

2009-03-09T03:43:57Z

omg..this is the first time I ever wrote a birthday post...
hahaha 'you' should be honored....lol

to my Dearest Unnie...
miss_sanzo
Otanjoubi Omedeto~~~
Sangil Chukha Hamnida~~~
Selamat Hari Lahir...Sanzo Unnie~~~
Happy Birthday To you~~~~

~~hahaha I sang for you a 4 languages birthday song....lol~~

may God bless you...
Wish you all the happiness in the world~~~

from...
~~your truly die-hard-fan~~
miszbee

So Little Time..

2009-02-05T15:38:50Z

Title: So Little Time

Author: miszbee

Genre: Angst

Rating: None

Length: One-Shot

Pairing: Yunjae/Jaeho

Summary: There’s so little time left, but there are so many things to do and to be done. Will you ever have the time and the one who will help you going through everything?

Author’s Note: This is unbeta-ed and it came to me at 3am in the morning *just so you know*. Forgive any mistakes.

Your calloused hand slowly massaged your scalp. The frown on your forehead increased as the massage got stronger. The pain that has started 2 hours ago had no sign of decreasing, instead it sting like hell. Your back hurt, the result of you already weary and thin body being leaned on for too long on the bedside, instead of lying on the comfy bed. White pills, the medication that you were supposed to consume every time the pain struck, scattered under the bedside table. A shattered glass accompanied by a few drops of blood, your own blood remained on the white tiles of his bedroom.

This was not how it is supposed to be. You were still young, has not even reach the age of 30, yet you can barely hold a glass of water. You still have the face that everyone thinks as an eye-catcher, yet you lost the shine behind it. You were the star that every one admires, yet you barely acknowledge yourself when you look at your reflection on the mirror. Your name was on everyone’s mouth, being chanted like it was some kind of spell, yet you need almost all the energy in your body just to utter a simple word.

But now, look what have you become. You were a mess. You lost everything. You lost the million dollar smile that melted women or even men, you lost the intense look that used to pierce people right to the core, you lost the six-packed abs that brought envy to those who saw you. Right now, you were just a wreck, beyond repair. The chatter box that you used to be has turned into this lifeless zombie that has nothing, nothing except your daily medication and your table calendar that helped you counting the remaining days. More marks than blanks, well that’s an ‘achievement’. There were not many days left until that big red ‘X’ mark at the end of the calendar.

“Jae...”

Damn you. How can you forget this wonderful man. No. This wonderful, angel in disguise. The one who had been and will always be with you, no matter how cruel fate can be to you.

Your friend.

Your partner.

Your love.

“Joongie..where are you?”

You tried to answer his call, but the pain forbid you to. Just a groan passed your chapped, dried lips. But you knew, he will find you. Just like he always do. Sometimes, it overwhelmed you how he always managed to find you eventhough how far apart you both can be. Sounds of his steps told you that he will be in front of you in few seconds. You plastered a small smile, reducing the pain look on your face, masking the hell of a pain that you were facing inside. You gathered your strength, holding to the bedside table to stand up and pushed yourself onto the bed, minimizing the noise that you made.

The blood. How can you forget that. He will see it. Too late.

The bedroom door squeaked and heavy footsteps turned into fast paces as the other guy ran to you. The smile that was on his face disappeared in mere seconds as it changed into a thin line with a concern frown on his small face.

“Joongie, are you hurt?”

“Yunnie, no!! Don’t come near....”

Too late. The glass went right into his right heel.

“What’s wrong?”

“You will hurt..... yourself.”

You knew he put himself second to yourself. He will turn into this invincible man who can’t even get hurt by glass whenever you are around. You hate him for that. Why he has to put you on top of everything, even himself.

“Babe, what happen? Are you in pain? Is the headache coming again? Do you want anything? I’ll go take the wet towel, you know it will make you better. Have you taken your medication? Is it here? Oh my god, you hurt your hand is it? Where is the first aid kit, I thought I put it here this morning...”

“Yunnie, I’m all right. I’m better now...”

“No, you’re not. Come, let’s go to the doctor. Who knows....”

“Yunnie...”

“I’ll go get your jacket. You stay here...I’ll be back in a sec...”

You grabbed his hand, forced him to look at you straight in the eyes since he has been avoiding it. It was his habit, avoiding your gaze whenever he decided on something that you will object. And obviously, he knew how you hated going to the doctor. How you hated hearing the same advices, telling you to take better care of yourself, telling you to take the medication on time, and telling you that you have not much time left, so use it wisely. As if the doctor care, as if he understood how you felt, knowing how dark you future is. Why take the medication on time if you knew you will be dead by the end of the year? Why take better care of yourself if you knew that this body can’t even surpass more than 4 months? Why bother telling you how much time you have if he knew that instead of using it wisely, you will only count the days that you have left?

“Joongie..”

“No! I’m not going anywhere. it’s just a scratch. I tried to take the glass, but the headache was too painful that it slipped of my hand. It’s nothing, Yunnie.”

“Are you sure? We can always check with the doctor. Maybe he can change the medication. Your headaches come quite regular now isn’t it, since he changed your medication last month. Maybe...”

“I’m 100% sure. Maybe, it’s just the side effects. I’m okay now.”

“But Joongie..”

“Seriously, I’m fine. I forgot to take the pills after lunch, that is why I got the headache I think. It’s nothing serious, Yunnie.”

“Okay now. I’ll go take the kit for your hand okay. You stay right here.”

You noticed his limp, caused by the shattered glass on the floor. This was all because of you. Because of this stupid cancer that you have 2 years ago.

You turned to the picture at your side. A picture of two men holding two scrolls and a bouquet of flower, different heights, different style, one with a jet black hair while the other with a shorter brown hair, yet with the same eyes and the same smiles that told the world that they were twins. Beside it, a picture of you and Yunho, while you were looking over the sunset at the Han River, you favourite place.

You have kept the news of your cancer only to yourself on the first year but that ungrateful doctor has unintentionally, as he claimed, slipped it out to your boyfriend and later your family even after your constant reminder to keep it a secret from anyone.

You kept the news from everyone, even from your twin, Junsu. But twins will always be twins. Twins think alike, you even feel alike. He knew you have been keeping something from him. When he discovered your disease, instead of consoling you, he kept his distance. Instead of giving a shoulder to lean on, he gave you a piece of his mind.

<flashback>

“And here I thought we were brothers.”

“Susu-ah..I didn’t mean...I don’t want to..”

“You don’t want to what? Don’t want to burden me? Don’t want to make me worried?”

“.....”

“I am supposed to worry for you, well you always make me worried anyhow. Of course, you have always been a burden to me. When you bumped dad’s car on Mr Park’s gate, whom did you call? When you passed out drunk after you failed the driving test, whom did you call? When you broke into a fight with Yunho because of a fucking phone call from his ex, whose sofa that you crashed on? You are OBVIOUSLY a burden to me. But, did I ever regret it before? Regret on you being the burden to me? No..fucking no.. because I am your brother for god sake. You are my brother, of course I will care for you. And now, you are keeping this a secret for me. This fucking disease or whatever it is, you are keeping it a secret because you CARE for me? Don’t you dare give me this shit.”

“I don’t know how to tell you. I don’t want you to know because...I don’t want to make you sad. I want us to be like normal, I don’t want to be taken care of cause I know you will treat me differently. You will be extra careful with me...like I’m some kind of....some kind of disabled people. Some kind of retards. I want to take care of myself. I don’t want people to look at me out of pity, especially not from you.”

“Of course I’m going to be sad. You’re my other half. When you’re gone, apart of me will be gone too. But the other part will continue to live..for you. You want to be normal? Yeah, I can give you that. You don’t want me to take care of you? No problem, I am pleased to hear that cause I know my brother is strong enough to live on his own. I know my brother is strong enough to fight this. But at least, let me be with you. Allow me to give you strength and lend you a shoulder whenever you need one. Don’t keep any secret from me hyung, please. Just don’t leave me unprepared for something as big as losing you cause you know I can’t handle that.”

<flashback>

That was your way of dealing with your disease. You thought that putting aside your feeling and leaving your loved ones will lessen the pain they will feel once you are truly gone. You had planned to leave Yunho. You intended to break this wonderful relationship of 5 years that you have down the drain, so that no one will get hurt. At least that was what you had thought. But you forgot to ask him, ask the person himself. As you were too engrossed with your own feeling, you kept your distance again, just like what you did to Junsu and your family. However this time, instead of being enlightened by the other man, you were the one who realized that you needed him somehow. You needed him to survive on your seven months that were promised to you, you needed him beside you on your remaining days. Somehow you knew, you did not wish to be alone, and faced this on your own.

<flashback>

“Yunho!! What the hell are you doing?? Put it down!!”

He gripped harder onto the razor blade. Pointing it directly towards his vein on his left wrist. The bathroom was messy. The towel lied on the floor, bottles of medicine that you have kept secretly behind the rack as your emergency source were scattered on the white tiles. How can you forget to take it when you left his house 2 weeks ago. He didn’t answer your call, instead his gaze was still focused on the green vein. You saw few scratches on his arm, his favourite yellow shirts tainted with blood here and there, his tousled hair, and yet you still love him. Was this the impact you had left with him when you walked out of his life? Was this what you really want?

“Yunho...give me that. Please...”

You stepped closer to him, extended your hand to him, silently asking him to pass the razor to you.

“Why would I do that?”

“$You are not going to hurt yourself with that. Now give it to me.”

“I’m already hurt, in case you didn’t notice. So now please, could you leave so I can continue killing myself.”

His sarcasm killed you inside. Of course he was hurt. By you.

“No, Yunnie. Please, don’t do this...”

“Why not? Why don’t you see me die first, then you can DIE in peace. I want you to know, I want you to feel which situation you are putting me in. Just to let you have a taste of what I will feel later.”

“Yunnie..no! I...I didn’t mean to...you don’t know how difficult it is for me to...”

“To what? To tell me that you are dying? It’s simple..just tell me straight to the face, tell me like a man..tell me...I AM FUCKING DYING SO BE PREPARED. But no...you just ran. Ran like a fucking coward. You think I’m going to leave you? You think I’m a heartless bastard who will leave you to die alone?”

“NO!! Just stop it. I don’t want you to get hurt again. Not after ... after what happen to Yoochun.”

“Fuck it. How dare you use Yoochun as an excuse. Don’t you ever bring my brother in this.”

“Yes, Yunnie. I don’t want you to be hurt again, like that. I know how hurt you were when Yoochun left, it’s like you were dead too. I don’t want you to ever feel that again.”

Tears streamed down your already pale face, remembering the past. When Yoochun were still alive, when Yoochun were diagnosed with the same disease you have now, when Yoochun was in his remaining days. It’s funny how fate can do that to you, to Yunho. How can fate be so cruel, to let Yunho go through an excruciating pain twice in his trouble life.

“I won’t let you experience it again. It was hard for you to live your live again, and I don’t want to be the one who crashes everything again. I want you to live happily. I don’t see me in that happy life I’m imagining, cause I know I won’t be in it eventhough only God knows how I wish I was apart of it.”

“How is this ‘happy life’..you imagined of? Do tell me...please..”

“I want you to forget me. Forget that I ever exist. Let it all be just mere memories kept ain the farthest place of your mind. Move on. Meet new guy or girl for god sake. Fell in love. Get married, live happily ever after like in the fairy tales you love so much. There’s no me....there will be no me in the future.”

“That’s where you got it all wrong, Jae. How can I ever forget you?”

“You can! You have to!”

He put down the blade he had been holding and moved to your direction. His heavy footsteps seemed so tired, not to your liking cause it was obvious how he had been abandoning his health.

“I can’t and I won’t forget you, Jae. Not after everything we have been through. You saw me crumpled after my brother’s death, and you saw me slowly standing up again. Isn’t that a sign of how strong I am? You were with me when I was at my weakest point, you saw me broken into pieces. But baby, you were the one who put me back together, you were the one who taught me how to walk again, but I learnt how to fly on my own later. Isn’t that a sign of how invincible I am and also a proof that I can experience it again if I have to.”

“But Yunnie, you don’t have to. I don’t want to be the cause of your sorrow. I won’t let you face it again, alone this time, without me.”

“I want to, Jae. You know I would do anything for you.”

Your trembled hands gripped his shirt tighter than you can imagine. He brought you closer to him, embraced you in his warm chest. You head fit perfectly under his chin, a sign that you were made for each other, like Yunho claimed. Suddenly, you felt the fear. The fear that you have kept inside from the moment you got the news of your fatal disease. You had promised to yourself that you will be strong enough to face this alone, you refused to cling on others or burden them with your fear of dying but right at this moment, everything started to rush out without you being able to hold it back. You sobbed harder into his chest, pouring your heart out and let your greatest fear slipped out of your once cherry-red lips.

“I’m afraid, Yunnie.I’m afraid of the dark, Yunnie. Everytime I close my eyes, or go to sleep, I’m afraid I won’t wake up again.”

“I’ll be here, Joongie.I’ll be there when you close your eyes and be right beside you when you open it again. I’ll be right beside you, every day, every night, every second, if you allow me to.”

“Just...don’t leave me.”

“I won’t. You know I won’t let you go, again.”

<flashback>

Here you were. Living your remaining days with the man that you love so much, with never ending support from your family. You feel so much loved in this so little time you have left. You regretted how you never really appreciated the love you got all this time, not until you have only four months to cherish.

Since the news broke, your family has taken an extra care for you, as expected but Junsu kept his promise. Whenever he called, they talked about the usual conversation they always had like where’s the best place to go clubbing, where can he find a stylish pant or when will Jaejoong introduce his friends to him. Still, he asked if you ever need anything and how you were coping with the disease. You answered him sincerely, no secret being kept and as usual, Junsu will be the one who accompanies you for your usual check-up even with Yunho tagging along. As for Yunho, he asked you to move in with him, more like forced you to but you agreed happily to it within an instance since you knew you can never live without him. He cooked your favourite meals, he took you to bed, even read bedtime stories for you whenever you requested for it, bathed you whenever you felt like you can’t even standing and most importantly, never leaving your side as he had promised. He was there when you closed your eyes and he was still right there when you opened it.

Sometimes it came across your mind, was this cancer a curse from God, or was it actually a blessing from Him.

It was a blessing as it let you cherish every single memory that you made with your loved ones.

It was a blessing as it allowed you to feel the love they have for you.

It was a blessing as it gave you ample of time to give your love to everyone.

It was a blessing to know that there are people who really treasure you just like you treasure them.

You knew there were too many people to spend your remaining time with. There were too many thank you-s that you have to deliver before you ran out of time. There were too many forgiveness you have to gain before you regretted not being able to ask for it. And there were too many memories you wish to leave behind the people you loved before you close your eyes, so that they will remember you forever.

Deep down inside you knew, in this so little time, there are too much to do, and you will use your remaining days to make memories that will forever be cherished, if not by you, by the ones who created it with you.

Thought soo~~~

2009-02-05T13:36:58Z

miszbee @ 2009-01-26T16:54:00

2009-01-26T08:57:41Z

omg..omg..I almost forgot...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
DEARIE JOONGIE
may you have the happiest birthday...
do receive my love too..lol~~
~~*ahh..I'll just celebrate your birthday here..*~~

Anybody??

2009-01-03T00:53:16Z

ok this is weird...
I'm making a request post in my own LJ
just because all these comm have their own so-called-strict rules..yada yada..that shoould be considered before we post anything....
*but still, I tried...heheh I posted a request on dbsg about this..cause that's the only place I can think of*

so here I am...early in the morning *do you think 8.36am still early?? well yeah for me..*
in front of my laptop..*my mom was like..eh you're awake?? what the hell were you doing in the dark *no cursing actually*...you look like some kind of a psycho..with that eye-bag and all*
I went through Youtube and saw the dance parody on KBS Entertainment Award...
damn...it was hilarious...
with that Boon Seoung trying to be Son Dambi..hahah she was cute..and funny as always
well that 'Hyori-girl' looks a littlle weird..plus I don't even know her...
the DBSK wannabe well..of course funny....
but the 'Rain-guy"....hahha he's damn good...I love the way he dance..plus him being skinny just made it funnier...I forgot his name but he's the one in Champagne with the Dong Bang boys...the one who was trying to be their promoter...right???
and then, there was this guy who kept appearing during the interlude of every dance..I think I saw him last night on Entertainment Relays *well, KBS World in Malaysian TV is a bit late, I mean they show us something that was shown like 2 weeks earlier in Korea...ahh I dunno why..but I know this, I hate it...cause I watched Music Bank on 22nd December and bam..there they are..DBSK singing Don't Say Goodbye which was actually sang on the 5th of December...ahhh I want to watch it live...but I guess they did it like that so they can sub the whole thing first..heheh but thank god for the sub..lol*

ok back to business............
and seriously, I would like to download that....in HQ heheh..cause my friend used to call me a HQ junkie...lol
so is there anyone in my dearie F-List who happen to have this video???
please..please..anyone..
but seriously, if there is anyone reading this, I would be grateful enough...hehehe

I think I need to go back to sleep...lol
*cause I slept at 4am and I really need more sleep*

Japan..here I come!!!

2008-12-07T14:32:15Z

the title says it all..
I'm off to Japan in about 4hours...
I'm damn excited...
cause this has been my dream like..for years....
seriously, I really hope Tohoshinki oppas will be there..
hehehe..
better sign off now...
bubbye~~

Tarnished Angels...

2008-11-22T03:20:44Z

omg...I am so happy rite now..
gotta say..DAMN happy~~
after few days of ~~sadness and gloominess~~ *is that even a word??*
and my 10-hours sleep last night
finally I had something to be happy about...

but still..to be able to enjoy this happiness...
I had to go twice to the admin...
which is definitely not a short walk...look, my house is no 193, and the admin is near the houses that start with no 0...go figure
when I went to the admin the first time, she said she can't find it...
then I walked back to my house..with strong wind...I even met my senior...lol
she said.."why did you look so serious and not smiling at all??"
hmm so what am I supposed to do?? I am walking ALONE..and am I supposed to be grinning like mad all by myself?? plus the stupid admin girl can't even find my parcel..duh~~
later, the admin girl called me and said "finally we found yours..come again and take it.."
again, I went back down and retrieved it...what a long journey eh~~
but then I went all ga-ga over it..hahaha
I forgot about everything and just be happy....

firstly..I should tell you *to my F-list who's reading this...lol* this..
I have never ever..I repeat..never ever won anything during raffle, lucky draw or what-so-ever...
but then, my dear wedspawn did a raffle...and guess what...
I WON!!!!!!!
hehehe it's only the 3rd prize...still I am damn happy about it...
and this arrived yesterday..but I picked it up at admin this morning..
the packaging is damn nice
~~*haha everything seems nice to me for today..lol*~~
and my nickname..miszbee...was also written there..beside ~~my name~~

hehe here I am..
being excited and all....
~~*I took that pic myself...since almost everyone was not home this morning*~~
heheh thanks to my super big mirror...

tada~~~
introducing...my very own...
TARNISHED ANGELS

hahha at first, I put it at my table....
near my novels and my ~~so-called-educational-books~~...
but then I put it here instead...near my DBSK collection..
cause obviously this book is about Min7en...
*Min7en is definitely in my list of favourite OTP..heheh Yunjae is still my favourite..lol*

Hottie Minnie..

2008-11-05T11:07:59Z

okay...this is just a pic...
but I can resist Hottie Minnie here....
omo with his hot looks....
omo...Dong Bang baby is a man now...
Minnie-ah..you makes noona *points herself* here drooling everyday...

I think Minnie's rank in my Dong Bang favourite member has increase...
from no 3 to no 2...lol..*poor Yunnie..hehe*

Credit to http://sharingyoochun.wordpress.com/

Family's inheritance...

2008-10-07T17:31:21Z

so Appa decided to buy the bracelet for the whole family...
since Minnie got his....Umma and his big brother felt a lil broken-hearted...
and appa went to the store and bought two for his beloved family....
~~*well..he can never let his Joongie feel sad right~~*~~

because they were so happy...Umma and eldest brother decided to wear it on the same day...
Inkigayo 5/10...
here are the screen caps that I took...
~~*omo..I should really do my assignment now*~~

a family photo first...
umma, appa, son-in-law....
I wonder will the son-in-law get one too???
*glares hard at appa Yunnie*

umma can never resist his solo-shot
~~*got shot by Minnie coz I dare talk bad about his umma*~~

finally...eldest son Junnie...a bit ~~lonely~~..
I bet that's his hubby's hand...
gotta go check it back..*oppss that's Yunnie's hand..lol*

so Minnie got one, Junsu got one, *of course* Umma got one..
will Yoochun get one later???
let's just wait....

Appa's love..

2008-10-07T11:48:15Z

I was watching all the Mirotic perf...I saw this...okay..undoubtedly they share accessories *or maybe more than that..hehe*...we always see Yunnie wearing Joongie’s ring and vice versa....*~~which makes my fangirl-heart jumps up and down~~*..then I saw these...appa and baby Minnie also wear the same bracelet *bracelet or whatever it is*...I don’t know if it’s the lighting or what, they look ~~different~~ *colour I mean..* but still kinda the ~~same~~....lol hahhaha never seen appa’s love *or his willingness to share stuff with other members except for his Joongie aka umma..lol*

This one was their first performance...Inkigayo Comeback on 29/9 I think....

Minnie was wearing it on their M! Countdown Come Back dated 2/10...
Hahhha appa can be so loving sometime~~
maybe ~~Minnie forced his umma~~ to ask his appa to buy something for him...lol

wth..

2008-10-07T11:45:26Z

okay...I dunno what the f*** happen..but everytime I click the button "post" it says the post is too large..
I'm f***ing angry rite now....
I'm too lazy to study...of all the time why does LJ has to choose this time to mess with me??
Okay..i better find something to release my anger...I'm afraid I'll take it out to my beloved laptop...
let's just stop....
cool~~~
think of the flower...
think of the moon~~

TAGGED~~

2008-10-03T16:23:56Z

okay..so my dearie beloved o0oruby_chano0o has tagged me..
dongseng-ah...do you love Unnie that much?? lol...
it's been a while eh since we talked....miss you dear~~

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
Yes...*duh..*

2. Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
Yes..*Minnie-ah...lol...but yeah...younger boys are fresh..hahaha*

3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Hmmm..now that I've left school, I think yeah...I love school~~

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
of course shopping and buy all of DBSK stuff and merchandise that I can afford.....
some...for charity..*serious face...yeah,true~~*

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
Yeah.....been there..lol

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Being loved by someone...cause sometimes people don't appreciate us the way I did...and yeah, being loved is a blessing cause at least I know there are pople who care for me..

7. List out your 15 favourite songs: (songs not in order

넌 나의 노래 (You're my melody) - TVXQ
You're My Miracle- TVXQ
Darkness Eyes- TVXQ
Flower Lady- TVXQ
Whatever They Say- TVXQ
Hug- TVXQ
Mirotic- TVXQ
So Fresh- MC Mong feat Taewoo
Telepathy- Younha
Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Nattan Shimattandarou- TVXQ
In My Room- Shinee
Watlz Lesson- Alex
Free Your Mind- TVXQ
My Destiny- TVXQ
Love In The Ice- TVXQ

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Hmmm..pretend like I don't like him..and just be friends with them..

9.Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
hahahah...JOONGIE~~

10. Do you have any regrets?
Yes, of course.....but I'll try harder everyday so that I won't have anymore regret...

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
Hmmm...married, successful....still full of laughter and still a DBSK fangirl..

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
My family, my friends who stick with me through everything and my dearest Unnie and Dongseng in LJ...

13. What kind of the person do you think the person tagged you is?
hmmm she's my PERVERTED little dongseng..still I love her...*Ruby-ah...you know I do~~*

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
single and rich...at least I can do anything *sadly alone* with my money

15. What is your favourite colour?
Red

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes...

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one who loves me more than I love him....

18. What are the top five countries on your 'to-go' list?
Japan, Korea, France, Italy, England...and the list goes on and on and on...

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Having a relationship....*please...give me a bf..lol*

20. Five people I have tagged:
hmmm anyone in my F-List..hahah cause almost everyone I knew was tagged already..lol
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omg~~

2008-09-21T14:35:22Z

omo..I can't think straight...
ok..so I've seen the MV *fancam..thanks a zillion to that fan..love you*
the result....
it definitely going to give me sleepless night..
omo..the boys are damn hot...
and the starting step, the starting beat...JAESU dance...really got me!!!!!!!!
it was damn GOOD~~

ahhh let the HQ version comes soon to satisfy myself....
or else I'm gonna end up with panda eyes..

too HAPPY~~

2008-09-17T14:19:49Z

why the hell am I happy???
hahahha ~~*evil laugh*~~....
finally I can sleep in peace...cause I ordered my MIROTIC copies already....
hahahha did I say copies???
duh~~
ahahahha I ordered both versions because I can't choose which one to buy....
plus I convinced *forced/asked whichever suits you* my two best friends to buy it too....
hehehhe psycho_morgana and syila ...my Dong Bang buddies...

omg...omg...seriously once I clicked on 'pay' button on paypal, I was like...
"omo..did I just buy two DBSK album at one time???"
hahahahah seriously, I love doing IMPULSE buying...
*I just spent ~~AUD$44.95~~ yesterday to buy Esprit sling bag..now these..hahah there goes my allowance for a month*
and this group shopping for DBSK albums...it's the highest amount in my Yeasasia shopping....~~*eventhough only half of it is my money..hehe*~~

ahhhh anything for my Oppas..and dongseng..
of course Changmin is my dongseng..I'~~m your noona~~~~
~~*gives flirty glare to CHangmin...OUCH!! receive one-touch from him*~~
ahhhhh I'm just too happy...I can't wait for the copies to arrive in my arms..lol

ahhh I don't know what dreams I'll have tonight...
sweet dreams *Joongie comes himself to my doorstep delivering the copies with a flower bouquet in his hands saying...you just won a lucky draw from Yesasia and you got a date with me*

~~nightmare~~ *seeing Changmin runs off and laughing like mad with my copies in his hands, then, he throws it off from Sydney Harbour Bridge*

hmm both are okay I guess, cause I get to see Dong Bang members...lol~~
oky..okay..enough with this blabbering..
I have to finish my assignment first...
*off to juz_died room to do our assignment discussion ~~(yeah right)~~..and then bother the other girls..psycho_morgana & syila..then to sleep*

TAGGED~~

2008-09-10T06:59:46Z

I was tagged by my dearest imie_schweetzel ....

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 56.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the next seven sentences in your journal along with these instructions.
5. Don't dig for your favourite book, the cool book, or the intellectual one: pick the CLOSEST.
6. Tag five other people to do the same.

haahah thank god the nearest book is not my ~~sociolinguistic~~ or other ~~crap book~~..that I am supposed to read..
ok...so here it is...

She simply couldn't do it.

She climbed down off the crate, then collapsed to the floor and wept without restraint.

What was she going to do?

What in God's name was she going to do?

"Pray forgive me for intruding on your privacy, but I would like to be of assistance if I may. re you going to be allright?"

The question came in a whisper.

Victoria squinted against the darkness while she vehemently shook her head.

there it is...it's from Prince Charming by my beloved author Julie Garwood...
damn I love all her books...because of her I turned into this ~~hopeless romantic~~ that I am now..

*again..just like imie_schweetzel , I counted the dialogue as 1 sentence..~~because I can~~...hahah*

hmmm...I don't know who to tag..cause almost everyone that I knew were tagged already...
so this is for everyone who wants to do it...
but still I'll tag these 2 'real life' friends..if you happen to see this..DO IT!!!
juz_died and jaejoongdotcom

MINNIE my baby..

2008-08-16T05:06:55Z

omo...now it's time for Minnie..lol
ahhh I just love your hair...it looks soo brown..hahahha
~~I can't find any words to describe it...~~
~~forgive me and my lack of vocabulary..~~
but damn!! I love it...
it makes our Minnie looks so hot + fresh + cool....*melts*
and those arms are to die for..
seriously, have they been working out lately?? cause they all looks so MUSCULAR?? eehehe

Junsu's hair...hmmm
let's say I just need more time to get use to it...~~*sorry Junsu's fans*~~
but is it just me..or does his hair makes him a bit chubby??
hahaha....
and hmmm I'm starting to like Chunnie's hair...
he looks cute..and when he dances, his hair bounces and hahaah CUTE~~

the boys in the uniforms are just..AWESOME..to die for~~
seriously, they all look so cute...
love Leader-sshi new hair..~~makes him looks younger and yummier.~~...lol
again, Minnie's hair colour stands out..ahh makes me want to pinch his cheeks *and runs off to Joongie from his one-touch*
ahhh I wish I was at the stadium....
is it going to be broadcasted on TV?? what about last year??
please...please do~~
cause all those fancams are killing me....
give me some HQ videos...
*still...at least the fancams satisfy me..lol..thanks to fans who recorded their perf..you guys are damn lucky!!*

p/s: my dearie imie_schweetzel.. sorry dear, I didn't reply your msg...lol..
maybe we can just ym..haah we can fangirl, squeal, shriek, one-touch each other the whole day..hahaahh

Credits are on the photos and to xo_kokoro...I got the pics from her post..

Joongie...oh Joongie~~

2008-08-11T15:35:59Z

hahaha...it's already 1.19 a.m....and I am still up..
seriously..no sign of sleepiness yet....
and I'm suppose to wake up at 4.30 a.m..
what (more like whom) was I thinking about???
of course about my dearest beloved hot Joongie...
hahahahha...seriously when he first came out with his new hair..
I was like....~~ahh he looks like a girl~~...
*but I just love the colour...haahha I even ask my friend to dye her hair like that..*
and now..just after I saw the A-Nation fancam, I straight away fell in love with him again *because of the haircut..hhahha*
for once, I think I'm gonna say Saranghae to the hair stylist *who did Jae's hair*

but then, when I look again at the fancam....
and focused on Chunnie....~~damn!!! now I hate the hair stylist~~
*haahaa I don't think it's the same person who did Jae's hair...lol*
omo..Chunnie..what have they done to you???
did you make them angry or what cause you look so..~~WEIRD~~~~
and I'm gonna agree with some fans when they said that it looks like there's a member of Shinee *Taemin* when DBSK perform..lol
~~hahaah seriously I'd prefer your chicken-style hair or beautiful-you-style than this one...~~
and I'm gonna agree with kyokoryu, you do look like Temenggung Jugah....hahaha

ahhh I better go to sleep now...
I'll cut Chunnie's hair.....
in my dream....lol..
p/s: yay..Minnie's hair is growing...HOT~~

picture is credit as tagged

Happy Birthday to me..

2008-08-08T12:21:21Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME...
hahaha I have to say this is the best birthday ever *yet..lol*
why?? cause my friends are so damn cool!!!
hahah they even had a suprise party for me...
and it was definitely a suprise cause we had it at about 8.50pm...
*lol..who ever had an early party before??*
but yeah...it was great....

the best was I got this card..

yeah..you saw it..
~~TURN ME ON!!!~~
ahahhaa

but thanks for my dearest friends who wish me a happy birthday...
juz_died kyokoryu psycho_morgana miss_sanzo imie_schweetzel
</b>so sorry for those whom name I didn't mention..lol

and here's the cupcakes made by my dearest Anis...</div>

Yoochun's collaboration...

2008-07-30T03:26:02Z

Tokyo Lovelight (DJ Makai feat Yoochun from Tohoshinki)

hmmm so I got it from dbsg...somebody posted it there...
thank you so much to magicmelodyx!!!
yeah..it's an upbeat song *totally different from Tohoshinki's genre..of course* and it made me wanna dance....
his earlier part was kinda drawn in the music but towards the end...
yeah..he really did it...so good!!!!
it's different from his previous work...
listen to it then judge it for yourself..hehehe

*not really my favourite but still...fun to listen to~~*

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